{January 21, 2013}   Today’s Song Sums It Up

I got my new car! Need I say more???

{January 21, 2013}   Today, It’s Okay

With my sister safely in our Emergency Room until a bed opens up at the State Hospital for her, I can now concentrate on my happiness about going to get my new car today. 🙂 The only difficult part is convincing my niece to go because I have her until my sister is better. My niece hates to ride in a car and would be much happier to stay here alone but she’s only six years old. She’s always telling me, “I’ll stay here and Sarge (my dog) can watch me”. Haha. I trust Sarge 100% because he’s a 128 pound, loyal German Shepard, it’s her I don’t trust!

So I’m leaving here in about an hour and I’m literally trembling from excitement! Honestly I’m almost in denial, like it’s a dream and not real. I’ve always driven trucks and SUVs, for one thing, so a car is kind of foreign to me (technically it’s a crossover), and they’ve always been cheap buys (aka pieces of shit that will last me from one inspection to another, barely). This car is nice. Really nice.

With my excitement I had a very hard time falling asleep last night and I kept turning my pillow for the cool side. That sent my mind on a rant, one I’ll call The Simple Things. The simple things that mean so much: The cool side of the pillow, whether it’s eighty degrees or sixty degrees in my room, I want the cool side of the pillow! A drinking glass, I can’t stand to drink from plastic! Every time I see my Auntie I get two bear hugs (at the least), one when I arrive and one when I leave. A TV in my room where I can watch my favorite shows, like NY-ER and The L Word, without being harassed about how “gross” they are. My animals for their unconditional love, when I’m happy, sad, angry or indifferent, they’re always there and they’re always happy to see me and be with me.

I tried to think of something ‘simple’ that had to do with my job at Fire/Rescue but I couldn’t. Because nothing is ever simple when I’m working. But that’s how I like it to be at that one place.

{January 20, 2013}   I’m The “Go-To”

Or at least that’s how it appears. If someone has a problem they come to me to fix it. I’m always putting band-aids on everyone’s boo-boos.

Right now I am getting ready to take one of my older sisters to our Emergency Room for an admit to the State Hospital Psych Ward. She’s an alcoholic, manic-bipolar, meth head who is also the single mother of two young children. So my week will be filled with kids and I will be missing out on a lot of work… right after I buy a new car. This whole situation reminds me of one of my first calls as an EMT. Not surprisingly it was to pick up my sister who texted her child’s father that she took all of her medications, every last pill, and she was sleepy. She happened to have both children with her. I hope she will be able to figure some things out while she’s locked up this time because those kids need a good mother and though I would do it, I don’t want to become responsible for them when CPS steps in and takes them away from her. There’s a reason I haven’t had any kids, other than I’m a lesbian, and that’s because I don’t want to be responsible for anyone but myself.

Wish me luck with this newest drama!



I haven’t slept much at all the last three nights from the excitement of buying a new car. This song has been stuck in my head for at least three days! (There’s some truth to this, you know! I have a ton of ‘battle’ scars and the chick’s DO dig it!)

{January 19, 2013}   It’s a Good Day!

…because I closed on the deal for the new car! 🙂  I’m picking it up on Monday after they put an inspection sticker on it. I’m feeling especially good about it because I did a damn good job negotiating on it. I talked them down $1,750 before I even went to the dealership to see the car and then an additional $271 today. PLUS I got them to agree to throwing in the inspection sticker and a full tank of gas. If I had had to do the negotiations face-to-face I would have ended up paying the full price they were asking originally because I’m a coward and I detest sales people.

I’m super excited!

It has all leather interior, electric everything including sunroof, third-row seating and every available option. It truly is a luxury car but it’s also sensible for me to use for my job and for family.

{January 18, 2013}   Today’s Song

Today’s song is a little bit random. I was going through some CDs (remember those antiques?) and found one that a friend made me. She used to sing this song to me all the time. It makes me smile 😀

{January 17, 2013}   Excitement, Possibilities
Same color and everything!

Same color and everything!

Tomorrow I’m going to pick up a new car for an extended test drive… I’ll keep it until Saturday afternoon. I’ve talked them down $1,750 on it and I’m in love with it! It fits my needs as a firefighter/EMT and it fits my family’s needs as far as seating goes. It’s a Ford Freestyle and it’s loaded.

Hopefully on Saturday when I return the car I will be able to sign the papers and keep it. The only thing that is stopping me from purchasing it right now is I want to be able to put it on the car lift and look it over really good: the frame, the undercarriage, the wheel wells, all of the places vehicles rot unseen to the ‘naked eye’.

Fingers crossed!

This song absolutely does not apply to anything in my life… but it’s catchy! And I like it.

{January 15, 2013}   Bad to Good… Just Like THAT!

I had a rather moody, crappy day today. But it turned around quickly. Just as I was searching for an escape route, my Lieutenant pulled into my yard. He was coming over so my brother could work on one of his vehicles and I hung out in the shop with them for a couple of hours. My Lieutenant is awesome. He’s so kind, funny and loves everyone. Just like that my day turned around for the better. After he left I took a nice long, hot bubble bath and read my book (“This is How” by Augusten Burroughs) and relaxed. I feel so much better tonight than I did today. I have much to learn from my Lieutenant outside of the Fire House. I thank God for my extended family!

I wish my baths looked this glamorous! For real, who looks so good when bathing?

I wish my baths looked this glamorous! For real, who looks so good when bathing?

{January 15, 2013}   It’s Just a Ride

Today’s song is a little more uplifting than the ones I usually post. A friend of mine has this song as my ringtone on her cell phone and I have to wonder why? I’m much more cryptic than the song is:

This song is more like me (Grey’s Anatomy):

et cetera