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My Best friend got me this shirt today, after we went to see The Heat. Apparently Angry Cat is fitting for me. Haha. Angry Cat actually looks a lot like my cat, Babe, lately… she’s doesn’t do well with the heat and humidity, it makes her super cranky. Me too!

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{June 30, 2013}   The Monster

Another one of my poems I have imposed on a picture in Photoshop. I’m enjoying this new hobby. With a background photo it gives a better sense of the Poet’s (my) feelings when writing the poem. For instance, the background on this one is dark and maybe a little foreboding, and smoke plumes are usually associated with cigarettes, which more often than not are associated with pain, suffering and death. And finally the hand… we suffer so much at the hands of others. It’s amazing how many things a picture of a single hand can symbolize.

 

The Monster

 



Changes

The quote above hit a chord with me, somewhere deep inside. It’s a very true, almost crude, quote. My “best friend” is now miles away in heart and mind, though she moved into a home closer to me physically. We never get together for coffee anymore and forget about our little excursions out of town. She’s so preoccupied with her new home and it seems her head is too far up her ass to realize that the world doesn’t revolve around her. I can only do so much when I get nothing in return, emotionally.

On the other side of things, I’ve gained many more good friends and family (my brothers at the Fire Department) both near and far. These amazing people would give their lives for me without a second thought, which is so much more than a lot of people feel from their loved ones.

I’ve also learned a lot about people in the last year. They will use you, they will cut you just to watch you bleed and if you don’t follow your gut feelings, your instincts, you will end up hurt. Like my Dad says about me, if I were on a jury they would have to prove their innocence, not their guilt, because I trust no one until they prove to me that they are trustworthy. Or I get blinded by “love” or lust. But if you’re lucky enough to find one of the few truly good people in this world, hold on to them, realize just how blessed you are to be a part of their lives, and they’ll feel the same towards you. There really is no greater feeling in this life than to be able to trust someone completely, with every fiber of your being.

And if you can’t trust them completely… don’t enter a burning building with them! Haha. And of course, always remember:

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Globe boots

The culprit.

Fight FireSo why am I a firefighter, you may ask? I don’t know, I kind of got dragged into the whole Fire Fighting/EMS thing by my brother, but I’ve stayed because I LOVE it. Now you’d think I’ve been doing it long enough that I’d know some of the basics, like what is and isn’t comfortable attire when you have to wear a bunch of fire-resistant clothing for long periods of time. Well, not really. For instance, tonight I wore ankle socks. Big no-no. I now have a giant blister on both of my heels from my turn-out boots. And I’m a big baby when it comes to sores like that. Seriously, I’d rather have a gaping cut and have to get stitches than suffer through a blister.

Now to google ways to ease the fiery pain of blisters!

 

 



{June 26, 2013}   Explicit Day= Explicit Lyrics

I have had the day from hell. Remembering that I have it a lot better than many other people do, I’m blowing off some steam with Godsmack and explicit lyrics.

 



{June 26, 2013}   The Heat

I’m pretty excited. On Friday I’m going to the movie theater with two of my best friends to see the new movie, The Heat. It looks like it’ll be hilarious. It doesn’t hurt that Sandra Bullock is in it 😉 , and Melissa McCarthy has been one of my favorite actresses since she was on Gilmore Girls. Check out one of the trailers:

After such a crazy,busy week (and it’s only Wednesday) I have a pretty slow day today. I have a doctor’s appointment at 4:pm today, a meeting at 6:pm tonight and then I have to clean a house at 7:pm tonight.

I’ve got my sights fixed on Friday 🙂



{June 26, 2013}   I Am Blessed

Allow me to be weird and somewhat sappy for a minute.

It’s only Tuesday but it’s been a really long week already. I’ve been suffering an awful headache since last Thursday (this is day #5) and I’ve been right out straight. We had a twenty-two year old girl complete suicide last Thursday via hanging and it seemed to go South from there. I’ve been busting my ass cleaning houses to make some money and in return I’ve been aggravating my back, neck and shoulder injuries. We had a house struck by lighting, a woman fall asleep while driving and hit another vehicle, a boating accident, an elderly lady hallucinating and seeing spiders (my greatest fear, right up there with clowns) and I’ve been involved with a Police investigation (I didn’t do anything, I’m a witness). Between doctor appointments, work and life in general I’ve felt like I’ve been living in my own little hell. Poor, poor, pitiful me, right? Well, I reflect on all of my complaints and think to myself: what do I have to complain about?

I’m alive. My loved ones are alive and well. I can walk, can usually talk and I’m not facing anything life-threatening at the moment. I have a job, or two, when so many people can’t seem to find work with this economy. I have food in my refrigerator, a roof over my head and I don’t want for much. I’m lucky enough to have the “extras” in life: a swimming pool, a luxury car, friends and family who care about me… it really could be worse. I guess it’s a good day when I’m the medical provider and not the patient. That may just be my new favorite pick-me-up saying.

I’m realizing that I am blessed. It’s a good feeling to realize it, and I think I’m making good use of my blessings by helping people in crisis. Even on days when I’m feeling down and can’t help myself, I can help someone else. As we joke about in EMS- I’m one of the chosen few. 😀



{June 25, 2013}   Stick It

I’ve been dealing with some harassment as of late at the Fire Department. I am the only female on the department and there are two men in particular who have an issue with a female being on the department. So far their bullshit has only served to make me work harder and better myself as a firefighter/EMT. So when I came across this picture via Google I instantly lost it. I want to have this put on tee shirts and give them to these two guys. That or just wear it myself every day to piss them off.

I sure as hell can!

I sure as hell can!



{June 25, 2013}   I Like Those Hot Messes

Uncle Kracker has finally figured out what my problem with women is. It’s all explained right here in this video:

 



{June 24, 2013}   Perfect Song

For that someone I’ve “Got A Thing For…”

 

 



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