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{November 30, 2013}   Movin’ Out!

pic   1I got my own place!!! That’s right… I’m finally moving back out of my parent’s house! This time is different though- I’m going to be living by myself, no roommate, just Babe and myself! I’m so ready for this. I’m very excited. I will hopefully be moved in by the end of this week.

The only snag? I have nothing… no coffee pot, no furniture other than my bedroom furniture (bed, dressers, TV), no kitchenware (plates, silverware, glasses)… nothing. I will be living like a first-time college student for a few months until I can accumulate the luxuries.

This is going to be GREAT! I start packing tomorrow 🙂



{November 30, 2013}   Tweet Tweet

Just a girl trying to make it in a high-tech world…

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So I just made a Twitter account for this blog. Since I rarely find the time to get on here to write a complete blog posting maybe you’d like to follow me?

@NotOkInTheHead

What have you got to lose?



{November 29, 2013}   Faced With Hell

From my other blog. This is how I ended my Thanksgiving evening.

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Woodshed Restaurant

This was a thriving restaurant, before 22:00 on Thanksgiving night. Upon arrival the structure was showing heavy fire throughout the building and defensive ops got underway immediately, ringing three bells and calling nine fire departments in (approximately ninety firefighters). Unfortunately the building is a complete loss. Firefighters fought a hard battle late last night and this morning facing temperatures as low as twelve degrees Fahrenheit and wind gusts of up to thirty miles per hour.

Though we were unable to save this property due to the heavy flames upon arrival, I’m proud of my brothers and sisters who answered the call on Thanksgiving evening and gave it all they have.

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{November 23, 2013}   Holidays Are Approaching!

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We’ve seen some snow here in New England- I woke up to a clean, crisp, white coating this morning. It’s a reminder that the Holidays are quickly approaching. Thursday is Thanksgiving already! I’m not a big fan of Thanksgiving. I’m not a big eater and poultry just isn’t for me. However there are only three days out of the year, Easter, Thanksgiving and Christmas, when we have the whole family- brothers and sisters, nephews and nieces, aunts and uncles- all under the same roof at the same time. There’s laughing, of course there’s arguing but best of all… there’s family. So I smile, eat some peas, squash and bread and patiently wait for desert 🙂

I’ve already been listening to Christmas music. My shower playlist- Christmas music. Radio in my car- Christmas music. Radio in my Ambulance- Christmas music. And once I get my Christmas bonus- Christmas music while Christmas shopping!

My all-time favorite Christmas song is The Little Drummer Boy by the Trans Siberian Orchestra:

And a little more new-age is Tiny Tree Christmas by Guster:



{November 17, 2013}   In Love!

November 16, 2013, 10:05 pm– My brother and his wife welcomed their first child, named after my brother. Junior is seven pounds, two ounces and twenty inches long. I’m exploding with joy! I have not seen him yet but I will go to the hospital in the morning to see them.

 



{November 15, 2013}   Setbacks

natural_heart_healthThis evening while preparing for EMS training at the Fire Station we had an in-house emergency. Unfortunately that emergency was mine. I had what the ER docs explained as a “cardiac event“, however they couldn’t tell me exactly what it was. I had what we call a syncope episode, a loss of consciousness caused by a fall in blood pressure. Basically, I blacked out and hit the floor. My own boys from the firehouse took me to the hospital. They refused to allow our transport company to take me because they insisted on staying with me and taking me themselves. I was in the ER receiving treatment for about three hours before they decided to admit me, which I refused. Lucky for me, my best friend was also in the ER for a minor medical issue and found me when she got discharged. God bless her, she came and sat with me until I was able to get discharged. I put on a tough front, but that meant a lot to me. Tomorrow morning I see a cardiologist and then follow up with my Primary Care Physician.

Now I’m sitting on my bed writing this because I’m not able to sleep. More than likely because of the Nitroglycerin they gave me. All of this comes at a terrible time… I’m stressed to the max already from things going on in my personal life and I’m super busy with work, physical therapy, the pain clinic and kids. I can’t afford a setback right now. In Reba McIntyre’s words, “I guess the world ain’t gonna stop for me broken heart”.

So I’m catching up on my TV shows- Chicago Fire, Grey’s Anatomy, Chelsea Lately and American Horror Story.



{November 12, 2013}   Coping Skills

mvaThe tones went out for this motor vehicle accident at 17:57 this evening. Two of the occupants were flown to a major hospital by helicopter from the scene and it will be a miracle if either of them survive.

In Fire and EMS we tend to joke about these horrific calls as a way to cope with the horror we are faced with. It seems morbid, or even disturbing, to people who do not deal with these scenes. But for us it’s the only way we know. So… Don’t Drink and drive, or I get to see you naked!

Think people! And stay safe!



{November 11, 2013}   Music is my Voice- “Plumb”

This lyrics video by Plumb, “Damaged”, is a beautifully crafted video. This song holds so much meaning for me and I think the video allows the viewer to feel a little bit of the raw emotion within the song:

In Plumb’s “Nice, Naïve and Beautiful”, if you listen to the violins at the beginning you can hear them crying sadness and misery. Towards the end, around “We’re all dealt our lumps of coal/What you do with it can turn beautiful”, you hear the violins change ’emotions’, if you will, and it sounds more like they’re crying from relief, happiness. Check it out:

***I may be a bit biased when I listen to music. The violins really catch my ear… maybe because I play the violin? Or because the violin truly does cry the emotions of the songs?

This next song by Plumb, “Manic”, hits very close to home. I grew up with a bipolar-manic-depressive mother. I’d say the lyrics in this song are pretty accurate:

I want Plump to sing me to sleep with this song every night:

 

 

 

 



{November 11, 2013}   WARNING: HOT video!

There is no denying that this video is hot! Now, usually I don’t understand how people, men or women, get turned on by porno or ‘sexy dancing’, but holy crap Batman! Who doesn’t love P!nk? Check it out:



{November 11, 2013}   My Playlist

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“I’m gonna make it to the top, well let me show you, and if I’ve got to toughen up then that is what I’ll do, don’t make me a monster, baby, you’d be crazy, that’s for sure…” ~Jem

Nonessential information: I have a routine I must follow or I go completely ballistic- Go to Dunkin’ Donuts every Sunday, Tuesday and Thursday night at ten o’clock in the evening to get my medium, hot, French Vanilla, extra-extra with a shot of espresso and three ice cubes. Then I sit in my car in the parking lot, listening to music, and drink exactly half of the coffee before taking the long way home. I need this time, this constant, or I go totally ape-shit.

My current playlist is:
1.) “24” by Jem
2.) “Good Enough” by Sarah McLaughlin
3.) “In the Arms of an Angel” by Sarah McLaughlin
4.) “Save Me” by Jem
5.) “Seduces Me” by Celine Dion
6.) “They” by Jem
7.) “Come Over Here” by Sarah Bettens
8.) “Dreamin’ of You” by Celine Dion
9.) “Adia” by Sarah McLaughlin
10.) “Do What You Have to Do” by Sarah McLaughlin
11.) “Falling Into You” by Celine Dion
12.) “Fire on the Mountain” by Rob Thomas
13.) “I Always Knew” by Jem
14.) “Just Stay Here Tonight” by Augustana
15.) “Thank You” by Dido

Because fifteen songs is way too many to post the videos of I chose a few of my favorites, three that really speak to me at the moment:



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