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{March 3, 2014}   Nothing’s Changed

For some reason I thought that having my own house, a cat, a dog and a life separate from everyone else would make me feel different. What kind of different, I don’t know. Maybe I expected it to make me feel special or “grown-up”. That’s not how I feel. I think I may have thought in the beginning that I finally had freedom and my own house to have freedom in, that I’d have friends over and get drunk and have parties. That is most definitely not the case. I think that despite having my own home, nothing has changed for me. I can say that since moving out of my parent’s house I feel better. Don’t get me wrong I love my Mom and Dad with all of my heart. However their house is full of twenty-three years of clutter and with all of the foot traffic it’s damn near impossible to keep up with the housework there. Here in my house I clean every day. There’s no clutter what-s0-ever. My counters are spotless, my floors are clean, there aren’t shoes covering the entryway, there’s no dishes overflowing my sink… and as an added bonus I don’t have to keep the volume down on the TV or stereo. I can wander my house all hours of the night and not worry about disturbing anyone.

So in reality, though on the surface it seems everything has changed for me- new friends, new home, new responsibilities, new dog, etc.- nothing has really changed. I’m still the same person, though I may have my shit together a little better now.

To top it all off… I now know that I’m a good person. I’ve rid myself of the toxic people in my life who were holding me down and preventing me from growing. I’m no longer running around and answering to their every beck and call. I was a good person before, I just didn’t see it because I was surrounding myself with bad people. What a difference it has made to rid myself of the toxic people in my life! I definitely suggest everyone try it.



{November 23, 2013}   Holidays Are Approaching!

Lights

We’ve seen some snow here in New England- I woke up to a clean, crisp, white coating this morning. It’s a reminder that the Holidays are quickly approaching. Thursday is Thanksgiving already! I’m not a big fan of Thanksgiving. I’m not a big eater and poultry just isn’t for me. However there are only three days out of the year, Easter, Thanksgiving and Christmas, when we have the whole family- brothers and sisters, nephews and nieces, aunts and uncles- all under the same roof at the same time. There’s laughing, of course there’s arguing but best of all… there’s family. So I smile, eat some peas, squash and bread and patiently wait for desert 🙂

I’ve already been listening to Christmas music. My shower playlist- Christmas music. Radio in my car- Christmas music. Radio in my Ambulance- Christmas music. And once I get my Christmas bonus- Christmas music while Christmas shopping!

My all-time favorite Christmas song is The Little Drummer Boy by the Trans Siberian Orchestra:

And a little more new-age is Tiny Tree Christmas by Guster:



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