{February 2, 2014}   Roommate? Check!

I got myself a roommate. He’s gay. I love him.
Soon we are headed to Boston and I’m psyched!
That is all πŸ™‚

{June 18, 2013}   Is It Love? Or Is It Lust?

I feel like a little school girl because the girl from Boston and I have been flirting via text messaging nonstop since I left her in Boston a week ago yesterday. It’s totally wrong, I know, I just don’t care. Her girlfriend is a (an possessive) bitch. Besides, it makes me feel good about myself. At the same time it makes me feel uncomfortable, like the annoying harness on a roller-coaster. I’m excited for the ride, it’s fun, but I’m prepared for it to end because you just can’t stay on the roller-coaster.

You follow me? If not, here’s a song by Jem that explains all the feelings I’m feeling right now:

This is exactly what my face looks like right now. No kidding.

This is exactly what my face looks like right now. No kidding.

I feel so good! A weekend (or five days) away has done me a world of good. Physical pain aside, I haven’t felt this good in a really, really, really long time. I’m already planning on returning next month.

Ahhh, to be FREE! I’ve been day dreaming about what it would be like to move there. Obviously it would be different than vacationing there. I couldn’t get drunk and party every night like we did this past weekend. It’s too expensive. But down there no one cares that I’m gay. No one cares that I’m a female but wear men’s clothes. Everyone loves everyone else, just the way they are. It’s really kind of sad when I think about it: I can’t get that from my own family.

For now I’m going to hold onto this good feeling that still remains from my little mini-vaca.

At least I’ve had some time to rest. There hasn’t been a single medical or fire call since I’ve been home. That’s a very good thing because I’m not sure my body could handle that right now. I might even take my Valium and turn my pager off tonight, for just one more night.

{June 12, 2013}   Comfort Zone Vacated

There’s nothing like being dressed like a boy and being dragged into Bath & Body Works and Victoria’s Secret to shop for fragrances. I’m still not sure what the difference is between body spray, perfume and spritz. But that’s how my last day of vacation was spent. I did get a few spray bottles of stink-good (I don’t know what type it is) because I like to mist my pillows with it so it smells good when I go to bed πŸ™‚Β  It smells like a woman πŸ˜€

I can’t say it enough: this past weekend was amazing! Good friends, good food, good music, good times and good-good-goodness I can’t wait to go back!

We went straight to our Brazilian friend’s apartment in Boston Friday, got shit-faced and danced til five in the morning. We got up at ten Saturday morning and I spent the day riding around Boston doing errands with the woman I’ve been crushing on since I was fifteen (AHHH! <in a high-pitch opera voice>). Saturday night she cooked us some Brazilian food (yum!) and we had a few drinks and just talked and laughed until late. Sunday we got up and went to an amusement park all day and had a blast. We left her apartment Monday afternoon around three and drove to my friend’s parents’ apartment in the suburbs where we got Chinese take-out and watched Final Destination 5 in 3D (awesome!). And today (see above, first paragraph) we went to the mall and did a little shopping. We left around six and got home at ten-thirty tonight. I’m ready to turn around and head back already!

Stress free. Care free. I could be myself. I was in an apartment full of lesbians. I danced. I laughed. I talked. I learned a bit of a new language. I touched, I got touched. I ate. I drank. I relaxed. I didn’t care what anyone thought of me because everyone is so fun-loving. I haven’t felt that good in sooo long. ❀

{June 10, 2013}   Wonderfully Rough Weekend

My good friend Denyse (left) and myself (right).

What a great weekend!!! This is what we looked like this morning after spending the entire weekend with some crazy-ass Brazillians. We drank (a lot), we dirty danced (too much), we ate (a lot) and we went to an amusement park. Rollercoasters and spinning rides. Fried dough and water slides. Lots of fun, tons of happiness and even more love and hugs. I lived β€œThe L Word” all weekend and I’m sad to leave it.

This evening we’re in the suburbs taking it easy and relaxing. Chinese food and movies on the 3D TV. I can’t remember the last time I felt this relaxed and just happy, care-free. I could care less if I go home or when.

One thing I could do without is the pain. My back and shoulder are killing me from all of the activities. Home tomorrow and then physical therapy on Wednesday, if I can handle it. As you can see from the photo above, I’m wrecked, exhausted.

{June 10, 2013}   Quick Update From Boston

I’m literally stuck in Boston. I lost my car keys and my extra set is back home, about three hours away. Amazingly enough though, I’m not stressing about it. I’m so stress-free, content and happy right now. I don’t want to go home. Wouldn’t it be amazing if I could just disappear from my “life” and start all over again here? Ahh, the dreams!

I didn’t make it to any gay Pride events, but I have a very good excuse. I spent the day riding around in a fancy Cadillac Escalade with a woman I’ve been crushing on since I was fifteen years old. I had an amazing time πŸ™‚

Oh how I wish I didn’t have to leave!!!

I should be on the road headed for Boston in ten minutes, however my friend is running at least an hour late. That means we’re going to get caught up in rush hour traffic going into Boston.
I’m impatient. I wanted to leave last night!!!!!

Thankfully my physical therapist squeezed me in for this morning so I won’t be so sore for my road trip.


Let the good times roll Bean Town!!!

{June 4, 2013}   It’s Meant to Be!

So I’ve mentioned a few times in my blog that I’m heading to Boston this Friday for however long I wish. Today I found out that there are going to be a lot of Gay Pride events going on while I’m there. It’s like it was meant to be. I’m pretty freaking psyched! If you’re in or around the Boston area definitely check out this link:Β


I hope someday that this will be me with the love of my life. You go girls!

Al Borland

With the flannel, the hammer and the monkey wrench, minus the beard, we may be twins!

Today this handy butch ripped up a hardwood floor all by herself. I felt kind of like Richard Karn’s character from Home Improvement, Al Borland. Give me a hammer and a crowbar and I can do a lot in no time at all. I also assisted with pouring concrete to build a fireplace. It was a very productive day and my body is screaming two things at me: 1) VALIUM! 2) Why can’t we just be a typical female?Β  Well, because that would be boring now wouldn’t it? I put the boys to shame when it comes to handiwork and that’s all that matters.


Okay, she doesn't actually TALK to me, but she sends me dire messages.

Okay, she doesn’t actually TALK to me, but she sends me dire messages.

Tomorrow’s plans include doing an oil change on my car before heading to Boston on Friday. These new

vehicles are so finicky, they actually tell you, “Hey! It’s about time you gave me some love. I cart your ass all over God’s creation and I never let you down.” I guess it’s a good thing that I’m a certified mechanic. I feel bad for the women who get screwed when they go to buy a car or have something done to their car. Men can be such assholes and see women as easy prey for financial gain. It’s almost a hobby of mine to let guys think I’m clueless about these things so I can then make them look like an ass. I hope it makes them think twice the next time they try to screw a lady out of money.


{May 26, 2013}   Snow on May 25th? Yep!

Welcome to New England. Right now we’re experiencing a bit of a wintry mix out there. We’re approaching our 8th straight day of rain.
There are some exciting events coming up. On Saturday, June first, my brother is getting married! Then I’m leaving for Boston June 7th-10th for a mini vacation with one of my best friends. It’s going to be a great, relaxing time and I’m really looking forward to it.
On the less sunny side of things… I’ve been working my ass off at the Fire Department, I take my best friend for surgery on Thursday, the State has sent me a letter asking me to obtain custody of my 17 year old nephew whom I haven’t seen since he was 3 and my back is killing me.
Chin up! Things can always be worse, right?

If you want fire… just wash the trucks!
After I washed the trucks and made them all shiny we spent about four and a half hours in another town fighting a structure fire. Then returned home only to fight one of our own a few hours later. Now all the guys keep saying β€œWhen we want a good fire, just have Fast Phoebe-Q wash the trucks!”. It’s all good, however I missed my eye exam and they’re not being very forgiving. I’m still trying to get them to give me another appointment.

Unfortunately the nerve blocks I had on Thursday have not worked this time around. It may or may not have something to do with the three fires we had over the weekend.

I want to take a moment to mention the attack on Boston yesterday. It’s very close to home. The devastation is unimaginable. I’m praying for all who have been touched by this tragedy. Also, many thanks and great job to my brave brothers and sisters with Boston Fire and EMS, as well as the other responding companies. It takes great selflessness to run into an unknown situation to help people like they did.

et cetera