{March 19, 2013}   Job Offer

There’s a job offer on the table for me. I have to take it. My Chief pulled me aside at a car accident scene this morning and told me that the fire commission voted unanimously to hire me for a new position: Fire Department Clerk. It will not be officially offered to me until after the first Thursday in April. Chief said they will pay me a stipend plus my regular pay, should I accept the position. Of course I will. I’m doing the work now, only I’m not being paid for it.

I’ve been seriously considering taking some psych classes at the local community college. It’s something that has interested me since junior high and it would give me an advantage on the rescue squad since about 50% of our medical calls are for people with mental illnesses.

It’s been snowing steady since about three this morning and we have five inches of snow. It’s supposed to stop for a period this afternoon, but then they say it’ll start falling at 3″ per hour until we have around 20″. Just when I got comfortable wearing t-shirts and button ups without a jacket or sweatshirt…

{August 10, 2012}   A Little Bit of Good News

I passed my Practical Examination yesterday! With flying colors!  🙂

The exam included: Patient Assessment, Cardiac Arrest Management, Airway Management, Short Boarding and Splinting.

Now all I have to do is pass the dreaded NR-EMT exam (National Registry for EMT’s exam) and I will be an EMT!

The funny thing is, I thought I would feel different, smarter, more important, like I have some kind of meaning. But I don’t. I don’t feel any different now than I did two months ago before I started taking the class. The only thing different is that everybody is “so proud” of me. I’ve gotten a lot of support from the guys at my Fire Dept, but my family… eh, they don’t seem to care. And that is discouraging.

{August 7, 2012}   Surprise!

I was supposed to take my National EMT Registry exam on Friday. During lunch time today I was informed that I would be taking the exam TODAY at four-thirty. Panic set in real quick. The next three and a half hours were miserable with worry and anxiety. I have taken so much Ativan today that I should probably be comatose right now, but here I am. I took the exam. I’m pretty sure I tanked it. I don’t have a good feeling about it at all. During the test I wasn’t confident about any of my answers. I’m still not confident that I answered them correctly. I am confident, however, that I FAILED the exam. I’m pretty upset about it, even though I don’t know for sure. I won’t get my results until tomorrow or Thursday, but I’m so convinced that I tanked it that I’m not anxious about the results. There’s no doubt in my mind that I flunked it.

So basically I just feel like crap now.

et cetera