{November 11, 2013}   WARNING: HOT video!

There is no denying that this video is hot! Now, usually I don’t understand how people, men or women, get turned on by porno or ‘sexy dancing’, but holy crap Batman! Who doesn’t love P!nk? Check it out:

{September 4, 2013}   I’m With The Band

Steel Pans

This evening I went and did something crazy… I tried out for a Steel Drum Band and was chosen! Mind you I’d never touched a Steel Drum, let alone seen one in real life, before tonight. They showed me a few things, I banged them out with no problem and perfect rhythm and BANG! I’m in! It’s pretty exciting and gives me something to look forward to. And it’s sooo much fun! It doesn’t do any miracles for my shoulder and back pain but the emotional benefits seem to outweigh the negative physical effects. We’re going to get together every Tuesday night from now until May, when we will participate in a Steel Drum Festival. I’m already nervous but I’m excited at the same time. I love music, I love playing music and I’m thrilled to be a part of a musical group once again. It’s also a plus that I’m learning a new instrument 🙂

Man, it’s been much too long since I’ve been this excited about something.

{September 30, 2012}   I Went Out Last Night

Yep, I did. I went with two friends to see Saving Abel in concert. It was pretty amazing! We were so close we were against the stage and we got two guitar pics, one set list and we bumped fists with the lead guitarist several times! What a blast! Before the concert we went into a bar that just happened to be a lesbian bar… haha. THAT was cool, I’ve never been in one before and everybody was so chill. I had a shot of Southern Comfort with lime and a beer because I had to drive home, so I couldn’t get drunk :/ . The other awesome thing about going to the concert is we were so far away from home that I was able to be myself! I danced for (I think) the first time in my life. It was GREAT.

We got home around three this morning and I slept like a baby. Another good consequence of going out last night.

I feel good this morning. What a foreign, but good, feeling!

{September 28, 2012}   Journal Excerpt From 9/27/12


Short EMS meeting tonight. “M” brought “L” by too. She’s a paramedic from a local transport service & the Town of “C”. She has volunteered her time to help “Z” & I with our National Registry testing.

“Maura” messaged me today. We had a short fling when she was my physical therapist. Anyway, she’s coming up here next weekend and wants to get together. She’s bringing her new boyfriend…

“Ash” came over this morning and took me out to lunch. We had a nice time. It’s too bad that she and my brother broke up, she fits so well in the family and she’s my age, so our maturity levels are about the same. It’s just nice to have someone to joke around with and talk with.

The more I get “out there”, the more I want to hole up. It’s exhausting.



“Ash” just messaged me- she wants to take me to see Saving Abel in concert Saturday night. I guess she asked my brother about it first and he told her I’d like it, so she bought the tickets already. I can’t really say no, so I’m trying t be open-minded about it. Trying not to dread it, though I like Saving Abel. I just don’t like being in crowds. Or leaving my home, really.

There seems to be a lot happening all at once. It hasn’t really begun yet and I already feel overwhelmed and a bit anxious. I think my mind is most occupied with “Maura’s” visit. I’d love to see her, but it’s going to drag up old feelings and I think it’s just be weird with her new boyfriend there.



Tonight’s song just happens to be by Saving Abel:

et cetera