{February 22, 2013}   She’s Come Undone

Not only have  I been slacking off with my training and missing important meetings, but I just dropped out of physical therapy and dyed my hair a strange red. Tomorrow I’m taking Stubby back to his previous home. Tonight I’m going to a different state to go to a bar and people watch… maybe even have some fun? I won’t be having any more than a few beers because I’ll have a two hour drive . I’m also picking up a couple of people on the way, so I’ll be responsible for their drunk asses too.

I’m taking a break from my therapist too, but I wonder what she would have to say? I almost think she would cheer me on, but if not maybe she would suggest that I’m unhappy with something in my mind or feeling like something is out of my control, so I’m becoming a control freak with what I can control. Like my hair color and what I do. You know, that might not be too far from the truth.

Til I figure it out I’m going to try to enjoy myself as I unravel.

{October 26, 2012}   I Chopped My Hair Off

I did it! I got my hair chopped off. Here are the before and after pics:

This is me with my annoyingly curly hair that I used to have to straighten every day, and then put a baseball cap on.

And this is my hair now. It feels so good!

Now I just wish there was a permanent solution to getting rid of the red highlights. Oh well, my hair is now short and it feels great! Of course there are a few people who are upset about it and my brother even refuses to look at or talk to me, but like I said earlier- screw them. It’s my hair, my life. And I’m happy with it 🙂


{October 25, 2012}   Nearing The End

Alexandra Hedison, plays ‘Dylan’ on The L Word. Possibility #1.

October is Breast cancer Awareness Month and it’s coming to a close. I have participated in the Yo-plait Save Lids To Save Lives and am thinking maybe I should donate my hair. I have been wanting to chop my hair off for a while now. For several reasons: I’m not girly enough to properly style my long hair, wearing a fire helmet with long hair is miserable, jumping out of bed at three in the morning to run to a call makes it difficult to do anything with my hair and patients don’t appreciate your hair falling in their face. Not to mention I think I would just be more comfortable all around with short hair. I’m not talking about shaving it, just chopping it short. I’ve been googling short hair cuts and when I ran out of search terms I typed in “lesbian haircuts”. The results were many pictures of Adam Lambert, Justin Bieber and Chris Jenner (the male one, haha). There were more pictures of these three guys than of Ellen Degeneres. Fun fact: A lot of people on the World Wide Web view Pony Tails to be a lesbian hair style. Huh. I always wear a pony tail, under my camo ball cap of course.

A sketch someone did of someone with short hair. Possibility #2.

I wonder what preferences you guys have for a woman’s hairstyle? Do you prefer short hair, long

A little bit longer than the others. Possibility #3.

hair, medium length, or does it even matter to you? What about you? What is your hair style? This is a big leap for me but I think I’m ready.

On a side note, if I chop my hair off now I’ll kind of be making a statement of, Here I am! This is who I am! And it will be just shy of National Coming Out Day. Huh.



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