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{February 7, 2014}   My Guardian Angel is an Alcoholic

There’s a reason the boys at work call me “Oopsie”.
Tonight I went home to make some dinner- ham, mixed veggies and some cheesy bread with freshly shredded cheese. I was rocking out to some Godsmack and cooking when I reached over to grab a spoon and caught my arm on the slicer. And it did what it’s supposed to do- it sliced- clean and deep. Si after a trip to the ER, six stitches and a dozen steri strips I’m put back together.
I will admit that I was quite pissed off until… my nurse walked in. Whoa baby! Drop-dead gorgeous and as sweet as can be. Of course I was still wearing my uniform so the ER staff automatically respected me (why don’t they treat everyone the same?). Obviously at that point I was all like, “Nah, it doesn’t hurt, it’s just a little scratch, nah I don’t any lidocaine…”. Haha.
“Pain hurts but only for a minute, life is short short so go on and live it, ’cause the chicks dig it!”.

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Wrapped like a mummy.



{January 21, 2014}   Homo’s Date Women?

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Who doesn’t love the Golden Girls?!



{December 3, 2013}   Homo-WHAT?

homophobia“Well, while you were in the bathroom, I sat down at this picnic table here in Bumblefug, Kentucky, and noticed that someone had carved that GOD HATES FAG, which, aside from being a grammatical nightmare, is absolutely ridiculous. So I’m changing it to ‘God Hates Baguettes.’ It’s tough to disagree with that. Everybody hates baguettes.”  -John Green, An Abundance of Katherines

“You could move.’ —“Dear Abby” responds to a reader who complained that a gay couple was moving in across the street and wanted to know what he could do to improve the quality of the neighborhood.” -Abigail Van Buren

“Remember, Jesus would rather constantly shame gays than let orphans have a family.”- Stephen Colbert

“What would my first sergeant do if he came across me and another girl getting it on? He’d want pictures. He’d want to join in. He’d want me and this other girl to double-team him right then and there. On the other hand, since most heterosexual men are homophobic and sexist, most straight guys figure gay men will treat them the way they themselves treat women- that is, like sex objects. And this freaks them the fuck out.” -Kayla Williams, Love My Rifle More Than You: Young and Female in the U.S. Army

“Well Democrat or Republican, gay, straight, transgendered or bi, we are all united by our love and respect of delicious, flavored vodkas.” -Wanda Sykes

“My lesbianism is an act of Christian charity. All those women out there praying for a man, and I’m giving them my share.” –LGBT News Facebook Post

“I dream of a day, when I am treated like a human being and not hated for loving someone.” LGBT News Facebook Post

“How many homophobes does it take to change a light bulb? None. They fear change- even if it means making the world a brighter place.” –Themetapicture.com

“Homophobia is like racism and anti-Semitism and other forms of bigotry in that it seeks to dehumanize a large group of people, to deny their humanity, their dignity and personhood. This sets the stage for further repression and violence that spread all too easily to victimize the next minority group.” -Coretta Scott King

“The sad truth about bigotry is that most bigots either don’t realize that they are bigots, or they convince themselves that their bigotry is perfectly justified.” -Wayne Gerard Trotman

“I’ve just concluded that for me personally it is important for me to go ahead  and affirm that I think same-sex couples should be able to get married.” -President of the United States of America, Barack Obama, May  9, 2012, in an interview with Robin Roberts of ABC News. ( I know his views have wavered drastically when it comes to legalizing gay marriage. His opinions on the matter seem to differ depending on his audience or what benefits him at the time, such as during election and reelection times.)

 

 

 



{November 3, 2013}   Remembering High School Hell

While sitting at the coffee shop late last night, doing my crossword puzzle, I kept getting distracted by giggles coming from the corner of the shop. The high-pitch giggling was coming from three teenage girls who seemed to be watching videos on one of those outrageously expensive iPhones. I couldn’t help but notice how much it looked like myself sitting there with a few friends in my High School Hell days. The three girls were all considered obese (much like myself and the friends I kept), they hid in a corner of the room (just like me and my friends did) and every time a good looking boy walked in to get a coffee they went all googly-eyed and giggly (just like we used to).

I really got to thinking about my teen years on my drive home. Not so much reminiscing, as I wouldn’t say my high school days were enjoyable, but more like remembering the hell I went through and dealt with on a daily basis. Much of the hell in my own mind. My thoughts came to rest on how I so badly wanted a boyfriend when I was with my friends, but how I was so head-over-heels in love with, 1. My Middle School Principal, 2. My Social Studies teacher, 3. My Algebra teacher and 4. My Algebra II teacher, who were all women. Of course I kept my fantasies to myself. I guess I’ve always known I’m a lesbian but I denied it for many years because it’s just not acceptable around here. I think I wanted a boyfriend so bad for a few reasons: 1. Maybe people would overlook how fat I was because I must be worth something- I have a boyfriend, 2. If I had a boyfriend then I had to love him, so I wouldn’t be so obsessed with my female teachers. Maybe I’d finally be normal? 3. Maybe I wouldn’t be such a social outcast anymore, because like the ‘popular’ girls, I’d also have a boyfriend- therefore I’d finally have something in common with the popular crowd other than my excellent grades.

Needless to say, boyfriend or no boyfriend, I never got “into guys”, though God knows I tried and I’m glad I didn’t. Women are pretty amazing. Looking back to those days makes me realize that I had to go through high school hell to find myself. I’m really glad I went through it back then because I couldn’t even imagine what it would be like to be going through it in my mid-twenties.



{October 4, 2013}   Looking for my Princess

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{August 29, 2013}   Where I Belong

Where I Belong



{August 7, 2013}   Same Love

http://youtu.be/hlVBg7_08n0

This song played on The Fosters during Stef and Lena’s wedding. I love it. I’m so glad I found it!



{July 2, 2013}   For The Bigots Out There…

I stumbled across this video while getting my morning started today. Not a bad way to begin the day!



{April 8, 2013}   Humanity Is Sickening

I usually shelter myself from all of the cruelty humans inflict upon each other. I don’t watch the news and I don’t listen to reports on the radio. However, I do have a FaceBook account and terrifying news and stories are abound on the social media sites. I just read an article and I feel a little sick to my stomach now. Check it out:

http://www.policymic.com/articles/10810/you-would-never-believe-which-anti-gay-companies-you-support-with-your-money

The worst of all of these, in my opinion, is Urban Outfitters- “We’re not homophobic, we make clothes specifically designed for homosexuals… and then use their money to fight against their rights.” So basically they use us to finance their anti-gay campaigns. How sick is that?

And how about that Salvation Army official that said he believes homosexuals should be put to death? It’s entirely possible that if you checked his genealogy you’d find he’s a descendent of that psychopathic sadist Hitler. I’m not one to bash on the President of the United States but I have to wonder if he purposely sought out the votes of homosexuals and African Americans so he could just continue us down the path of destruction we’ve been on for the past five plus years? I don’t recall him being super supportive of gay rights during his first campaign for Presidency… but like I said before, I don’t really follow the news.

On a semi-related note, I found an interesting website. I don’t know about anyone else, but I know I feel a little uncomfortable when I go to see a physician (GYN, Therapist, Chiropractor) and they go on and on about their husband/boyfriend and then ask about mine. A lot of people assume that others are ‘straight’ and I run into that a lot, despite my obvious butch look. So I stumbled across this website where you can find LGBTQ healthcare providers and more. It’s worth a gander: GLMA.org

 



{March 4, 2013}   Shopping= Success!

I went shopping for clothes… finally. It was a success! I got a couple of men’s (okay, boys) plaid button up shirts, both long and short sleeved. I also got a couple boyish t-shirts and a pink camouflage button up. All said and done, I’m pleased with my purchases today. I now have more of a selection to wear, instead of only my fire department shirts. Now I have to find somewhere to try out my new look.
I feel like I’m finally coming into myself, finding the me that’s been kept under cover. I’m excited for what is to come 🙂
I’m going on 35 hours of no sleep. Time to catch up on some shut eye. Besides, isn’t sleep supposed to promote healing?



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