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Yep, summer has officially begun.

Car accidents, boating accidents and houses struck by lightning sums up my busy day.

I’m on the third floor and it’s eighty-six degrees in my bedroom. HOT! I’ve got an air cooler that you put water in and it’s supposed to be kind of like an A/C unit. Well, it doesn’t seem to be doing anything, so I ran down to the Fire Station where we have an awesome ice machine and got a bucket of ice. I dumped a bunch of ice in the water intake and then set a bowl of it behind the unit, where the air intake is. I’m hoping it helps cool it down a little. It’s much too hot and humid to sleep.

Hopefully tomorrow is a bit quieter. I have a muscle knot in my neck that is actually visible to the naked eye, it’s so big, and I’m hoping to get it taken care of tomorrow before this headache completely consumes me.

Before the storms rolled in today.

Before the storms rolled in today.



poollightningIt was a hot, humid ninety-six degrees out today so I spent a couple of hours in my pool. All of a sudden the sky turned black, so I hopped out of the pool and on my way into the house I heard the first rumble of thunder. I quickly got dried off and dressed in anticipation of fire alarms being set off by lightning. I no sooner pulled my shirt on and my pager sounded for a tree down on wires and on fire. I raced to the station, hopped in an engine and went to the scene. As I was backing the engine into the station my pager sounded again for a transformer on fire, so we took off again. We went straight from that call to another tree on fire on power lines blocking the road. We quickly cleared that scene to respond to another transformer on fire. I worked four calls in an hour and a half. Once I finished my reports I returned home for some dinner and my pager again reminded me that I live to serve others and my needs come last. A fifteen year old girl attempted suicide by overdosing on her antidepressants. She told me she was done getting picked on and she just doesn’t see any point in “sticking around”. I really felt for the girl.

It’s been a crazy day and I’m feeling it. My back and shoulder are broken. My physical therapist is going to kill me because I agreed to do “light duty” for two weeks if she wouldn’t write a note to my Chief telling him to take me off duty for two weeks. I offer up my wrong-doings but she knows the moment she touches me.

Valium and Seroquel are in store for me this evening. I do want to make one thing clear: I’m not complaining about my job- there’s nothing I’d rather do!!! I will risk it all if it means helping even one person.



Coyotes, Fisher Cats and (yes) Beavers. Which is why this crazy cat lady in-practice only allows her kitty outside on a harness and leash. She’s grown quite accustomed to it. For the almost four years she’s owned me she’s been an indoor cat only, and the previous three years she was a shelter cat. This Summer, Babe has shown interest in going outside and she’s even escaped a few times, so I bought her a soft, mesh harness and we’ve been going for little adventures, morning, day and night. However, this evening the rain is pounding down and she’s quite unhappy with me for not taking her out. She’s spent the last couple of hours “hiding” from me, no doubt publishing me for being so cruel. She’s never far from my side, so this is her version of hiding:

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Babe hiding, in plain view, right next to my chair.



{May 21, 2013}   Lazy, Hazy Summer Days

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Little man and myself are both ready and looking forward to the sun-shining days of summer. The different types of flowers, the smell of fresh cut grass, strawberry daquiris and kayaking. Bring it on!



Yet another unseasonably warm, beautiful day today. Ah, I love it! I spent all day right outside soaking up the sun, drinking beer with my Dad, walking the dog, driving with my windows and sunroof open 🙂   It feels so good! I did pass out around four this afternoon, though, and slept for about two and a half hours. My sleep schedule is null again… I’m not sleeping hardly at all. So I think the combination of exhaustion and fresh air with the sun beating down was good for me. Oh, and I have to thank my Dad for being Chiricahua- that’s the only reason I don’t burn to a crisp, but get a nice tan instead. Haha!

I had physical therapy this morning. I was hurting rather badly before PT, so it didn’t help me at all. My back feels broken, even more so after exercising and strength training at PT. My PT did say that the new pain in my shoulder is due to the tendons in my AC joint, something about them sliding out of place and pinching and yada-yada. I see the surgeon again in a little less than two weeks, maybe she can explain it a little better. It’s all I can do not to yell at them, “You know what’s wrong, stop telling me about it and fix it!” It’s very frustrating. Next month, April, marks a year of this crap. I’m ready for it to be over, more than ready.

Finally, I must apologize for my lack of poems. I’ve been wanting to pen new ones but have simply been distracted with this gorgeous weather we’ve been having. They’re in my head, I just have to put them on paper. I’ll try to do better. For now, I’m going to go do some exercising. I definitely need to do a lot of that tonight after I ate that burger last night. Sigh. There’s always a price to pay.

I am still looking forward to seeing my psychotherapist tomorrow morning. AND getting my sutures out tomorrow!!!! I’m more excited about that than I probably should be.



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