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{March 7, 2013}   Boys Have The Best Clothes

There is definitely a plaid pattern going on in my wardrobe now. This shirt is from the boy’s section in TJMAXX. Being it’s freezing cold and snowy out-and I have an appointment to go to- I put a navy blue long John shirt under it.

I haven’t seen my psychotherapist in about a month now. This should be interesting… wonder if she’ll give me shit for my hand? Check out the new half cast and awesome buddy taping of my two fingers.

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{February 26, 2013}   Butch Look

Okay, so I have never been one to get caught up in appearances or to make statements about myself through my style. What style? Haha. My wardrobe consists of fire/ems shirts, work pants, jeans and a few hoodies. I have one pair each of sneakers, shit kickers and combat (ems) boots. When I went out Friday night I really took notice of my meager selection of clothing. So I have decided that this Friday I am going to take a chunk of my paycheck and go to the city to buy myself some clothes. I’m leaning towards the men’s sections in the department stores. I like the idea of a preppy-ish men’s button up shirt. But can I pull it off? I’m not really concerned about anyone’s reaction to me wearing men’s clothes (I’m going through a fuck-it phase, remember?) I just want to look decent and, most importantly, feel good about myself. I don’t know, maybe I won’t end up buying men’s clothes, but I want to try on all of the different skins until I find the one  I’m happy and comfortable in. Rest assured I will be accompanied by a good, open-minded friend who won’t allow me to walk out of the stores looking like a clown 🙂

For once in my life this tomboy is excited about going shopping. The idea of finding my “look” has got me looking forward to the rest of the week. And of course once I find my “look” I’m going to have to find a place to show it off. Maybe my first gay bar adventure is in the very near future?

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{January 7, 2013}   I’ll Come Back Around

JAPSo after not reading any books for too long of a stretch of time I went to my library and checked out a couple. I read one the day I got it: Far From Xanadu by Julie Anne Peters. Man, I love her work! It was hands down one of her best books. So relate-able, smooth, easy to read. It makes you realize what those feelings are that you’ve felt before. It makes you feel a little less alien-ish. It’s heart-wrenching and heart-melting. It’s definitely one I will reread over and over!Tilt

Now I’m onto Tilt by Ellen Hopkins. I love her books, too, because they’re written in the form of poems, they keep your mind engaged and they’re written from the viewpoint of young adults who are facing different hardships. I’ll let you know how much I like it when I’m finished 🙂

Getting back into reading is a start for me. We got some good news about my Mother’s illness. The Pulmonologist has put her on a trial and if it works like they hope it will, and if she takes the medications like she’s supposed to, she could have ten or more years. I’ll take that. It’s a hell of a lot better than six months to maybe a few years. I’ve been very busy this last week changing things around the house that the Pulmonologist said had to be changed if she is to get the maximum amount of time and the best quality of her life. I removed the carpets, painted the walls, replaced the curtains and drapes with blinds and put down a hardwood laminate floor. The floor was a real bitch, too. I got it finished last night. Thank God I’m more like my Dad than my Mom when it comes to being handy. So, being a tomboy my entire life isn’t such a bad thing. 🙂



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